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Old injuries are still bothering me as i train up for my track%field... Looks like they haven't got much better since 3 yrs ago. Am be destinied to live with it for the next few yrs, or for the rest of my life?
Sigh... as usual thinking about the past again. All this hard work which I have put into my throwing in sec 2... all wasted...
wasted.
And now, my bloody coached signed me up for an external competition, in 2 weeks time, when he clearly knew that I am still struggling with my injuries. I guess i am left with no choice but to step up the intensity, but i know i gotta really be careful to not worsen my injuries...
sick and tired of all this.
posted @ 8:18 PM
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20060326
hihi.. its been a long while since i last blog... well so let me waste some of your time now and blog something for u to read... hahah jkjk...
BLOGGING SUBSTANCE OKAY, Read carefully! haha.. LOL
Sorry readers, I know i have not blogged for damn long, but i hope u are still reading this... crappy blog hahaha.
Well well... i feel like blogging abt an issue again today. and as always, its about love again...Yes, Love, the force that keeps man alive and never fails to bring meaning to our boring and mundane lives. I think its just amazing how much u can actually talk about this topic.. its really endless...
Well... now that i have finally stepped into a co-ed school, after being in an all boys school for 4 yrs... things are somewhat different in a new environment. I guess i would just wanna blog abt love in JC, is it a wise choice to get into a relationship at this point of time? or is it not?
I could still remember that when i was in secondary school, i kept telling myself that I must know my priorities right, and try my best not to get into any relationship until i reach JC. But now when i am finally in JC, I dun find myself ready to embrace love EVEN IF IT WERE TO comes. Instead, It feels as though that I have a tendency to resist it if it does happen...
Perhaps its partly due to the fact that I am having such a wonderful time in a wonderful class ever since i stepped into JC. I am sure you and I are clearly aware of the fact that most couples tend to drift apart from their friends when they get together... am i willing to make such a sacrifice? No. I believe that having a firm answer in such issues would actually help you to save a lot of time, and prevent you from making the wrong decisions that you would cause u to eventually regret in the future.
To get involved in love or not, However, should be left to each and every individual to decide. But, think about it... JC is actually the best time for you to widen your social circle, to build up your connections so that you would feel more confident when you step into society next time. If you were to bind yourself to a relationship as this point of time, u would have definitely missed out all the fun your friends had during their JC life as well.
In addition to that, I believe that if you really love someone, you don't always have to confess your love, you don't have to get possessive and try to court her, so that she will be yours and only yours. Just show your care and concern as a good friend and let the good times roll... Sometimes its better to just take one step back, for you will never know if she/he is the one or not, so why shut your options so quickly? are u in a hurry to get married at the end of JC? haha
Friendship is sweet, but love may not be sweeter. How many times have your heard of relationships between couples that have turned sour...uncountable. Why does that happen? Because both parties are not matured enough to handle a relationship. So why can't we just be contented with a simple friendship, why must we be so selfish to bind our lover with a status, and put someone at risk of being hurt when we are not even matured enough at that point of time?
True Love demands no return, you know that you are in love with someone if you feel this way.
I know that this is a pretty controversial and very subjective issue, but this is only my point of view, based on what i see in my everyday life, not an indisputable fact yup. :)
posted @ 10:01 PM
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Perhaps life was never meant to be a breeze for me... perhaps I'd just have to accept the fact that I have to take on much more responsibilites than others, perhaps It is my fault to burden myself down too much.
However, there is no turning back... I shall keep fighting to achieve my goal.
Time is short, there is no time for worries...
for worrying is just like a rocking chair that brings you nowhere...
posted @ 1:30 AM
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hey hey ppl. i noe this post is really a BAD lag, hahah but just wanted to say that I really had loads of fun at sentosa that day. Thanks to the organising commitee and also the ppl who went, thanks for being so enthu.
Really think that that it was a real special outing where both the newer and old classmates came together... haha.. so glad that you guys actually came... hahah 75 is indeed the largest class
For the newcomers i promise u that life in 75 would juz get better and better with time! and the victor and weiwei, continue to be a part of this family yea? we are expecting u for the gatherings in future, and there are definitely more to come.
Rock on 75 :D
Good luck for the tests and neverending hwk
posted @ 8:34 AM
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perhaps life now and before is totally different... no more long chats on the phone to share my thoughts, feelings, secrets and burden with anyone..
Perhaps life is too hectic for me to even do such things occasionally for now... though the pace of life is really really fast, there are times that I really wished I could slow down and share my thoughts with others. With all my amazing classmates and friends around me, why is this not possible?
Perhaps,
The problems lies with me.
At times we really need to learn how to trust those around us.
posted @ 2:03 AM
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wha.. what a fool. hahaha! lol the previous post was like totally out of point liao.
Our dear siyun came back la,
waste my time on that post, LOL
u are so damn lucky, got handphone, nano, and crumpler bag as a consolation gift, and now u get everything back, LOL
Aniwae haha.. welcome abroad once again, and i hope that the new guys would be able to blend into our class quicky :)
posted @ 4:50 PM
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And so it did happen... After weeks of prayers, encouragement, and precious time spent together... things still didn't turn out the way we wanted it to be.
Is this the end? does this mean that we are destinied to accept this cruel, trashy fact of life?
Perhaps by looking at things from a broader perspective... we know that it is not necessarily true that whatever arrangements which we hope for are the best arrangements... So is this considered as the best arrangement? As a normal human being who can feel and think, I personally do not think that this is the best arrangement. However, it is just a perspective and i would never know if i am right or wrong, for I can never tell what would happen in the future.
All I know is that adaptation is definitely a crucial part of life... Making the best out of every single situation...Though at the start it may not be a smooth-sailing journey, things would turn out better if you want it to be...
After all, Life is all about adapting to an everchanging path, holding on to neverchanging principles.
I admire your courage, your bravery, your perserverance and loyalty for the school. Life in 75 would never be the same without you... but I know that just like you, we will have to be strong and carry on.
And though our paths are now different from before, we are still striving for the same goal and i know that our paths would still intertwine from time to time...
I hope you have read this siyun... thanks for being the brave fighter who would never give up, and would walk out of the battle with a smile regardless of the outcome.
Cheers to the beginning of a lifelong friendship my dear friend.
All of us and I would miss you like nuts, we love you siyun!!
posted @ 11:18 PM
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It has been a long time since i have ever felt this wae... actually this may even be the first time...
Yesterday was the day that everyone in 06s75 have been dreading... the posting results for the J1s... the day that may break u or lift u high up...and decide where you will be for the next 2 yrs.
The day before, I have told myself to be strong and carry on with life no matter what happened during the posting result... no tears shall be shed, for reality will never be changed no matter how much we weep. However, when the news came... It just struck me too suddenly and abruptly..I was completely shocked... i was actually not fully prepared for the worst... and the worst actually happened... And when the cold truth gradually sets in, I just couldn't hold it back animore.
I seriously had enough of this ... reality is indeed way too cruel... Why must we be lifted so high up for the past few months and then left to drop all the way down, shattered and broken? my eyes are red, my fingers are trembling, It feels as though a piece of me have been lost.
A day of ups and down.. i am seriously exhausted... I feel like giving up the freaking tests, giving up the battle for the idol competition for now, I am far too distracted.
Here are a few dedications:
Victor: You have been a great friend for the past 2 mths... we all respect your decision and i really hope that you have made the right choice to be in NJC for the next 2 yrs. Thanks for your help during the bio practicals if not i would have been totally lost. Rock on in NJC canoe and do remain in contact
Weiwei: I seriously admire you consistency and effort you have put in to appeal for HCI. You have been a great friend.. Thanks for your help and support all this months, thanks for believing in me giving me the confidence that i need in whatever i do. I could have done more as a friend of yours... sorry for being an unworthy friend, but i wish u all the best in VJC..
I am so glad that for the past 2 months we have really made full use of the time we spent together... A class so united, a class so bonded that I can ask for nothing more...
despite the times when we were frustrated and stressed up by the amount of work to do, we still sticked together as a team and overcomed all obstacles. I would never forget the times when we stayed back so late to prepare for the various competitions and events, as well as the times we spent studying, eating and playing together. To me, those are the most meaningful times that have strengthened the class spirit and brought us closer to one another...
Though our physical distances would be changed for the next 2 yrs, I believe that the distance between our hearts would remain the same. For the class spirit would only carry on with you guys. You guys would always be a part of this class...always
at the start we came from different schools, different backgrounds, but at the very end, I know that we will walk out as a class. we will. 06s75This is a song dedicated for the class... especially for those who are leaving... may the spirit carry on 75.(its the music for this blog as well, be patient and it will download finish, and the singer's name is nicholas, not me who added it)
Dream Theater: The spirit carries on
Album: Metropolis Part 2: Scenes from a Memory
Nicholas:
Where did we come from?
Why are we here?
Where do we go when we die?
What lies beyond
And what lay before?
Is anything certain in life?
They say, "Life is too short,"
"The here and the now"
And "You're only given one shot"
But could there be more,
Have I lived before,
Or could this be all that we've got?
If I die tomorrow
I'd be allright
Because I believe
That after we're gone
The spirit carries on
I used to be frightened of dying
I used to think death was the end
But that was before
I'm not scared anymore
I know that my soul will transcend
I may never find all the answers
I may never understand why
I may never prove
What I know to be true
But I know that I still have to try
If I die tomorrow
I'd be allright
Because I believe
That after we're gone
The spirit carries on
Victoria:
"Move on, be brave
Don't weep at my grave
Because I am no longer here
But please never let
Your memory of me disappear"
Nicholas:
Safe in the light that surrounds me
Free of the fear and the pain
My questioning mind
Has helped me to find
The meaning in my life again
Victoria's real
I finally feel
At peace with the girl in my dreams
And now that I'm here
It's perfectly clear
I found out what all of this means
If I die tomorrow
I'd be allright
Because I believe
That after we're gone
The spirit carries on
Hypnotherapist:
"you are once again surrounded by a brilliant white light.
allow the light to lead you away from your past and into this
lifetime. as the light dissipates you will slowly fade back into
con
Sness remembering all you have learned. when I tell you to open
your eyes you will return to the present, feeling peaceful and
refreshed. open your eyes, nicholas."
posted @ 1:10 PM
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